“Someone can be madly in love with you and still not be ready.
They can love you in a way you have never been loved and still not join you on
the bridge. And whatever their reasons you must leave. Because you never ever
have to inspire anyone to meet you on the bridge. You never ever have to
convince someone to do the work to be ready. There is more extraordinary love,
more love that you have never seen, out here in this wide and wild universe.
And there is the love that will be ready.”
For a time, it felt like he and I were weightless, floating above the
world. The possibility of what we could’ve been was what kept our love alive. If I had seen things for what they were,
I would’ve realized that something in him was broken and the pain was too great
to overcome. I always knew that there
was a strong possibility that I would end up standing on the bridge alone. That one day the magic would fade. That
one day I would grow tired of trying. I wanted to convince him that he deserved
love; that he was worthy of it. I wanted him to stop letting his past stand
between us. I wanted him to do the
work. But in my attempts to convince him of his greatness, I compromised
my own.
That experience taught me so many valuable lessons. It taught me that I can’t
make someone do what’s not in their heart to do, nor should I have to. It taught me that the right
person for me wouldn’t need convincing. Ultimately, it taught me that the way I let people
treat me says a lot about how I treat myself. I had to learn how to love myself. I’m now at a place
where I’m ready to love again. I look forward to a healthy relationship with
someone who will not only stand by me on the bridge, but help me build it. I’m looking forward to building a
bridge, a life and so much more!
